by Lisa » Thu Dec 18, 2014 10:02:14 pm
Being a Loser, by Lisa Whelchel.
As one of the 9 losers of Stranded in Nepal, I feel that I need to contribute in some way. Whether it's just getting people to not forget about me, or just be an active presence throughout. I know a lot of people know who I am already, but I couldn't care less. I feel like, I need to give my opinions, not on the game, but my experience here. After all, this is "Lisa's Loser Thoughts" for a reason. I'm not here to talk about how Jeff is going to be unfathomably robbed of his deserving win, or how Kimmi shouldn't be winning this season. I'm here to talk about what it means to be a loser.
When I got voted out, there were 14 people left in the game, so I got 14/21 place. It's not a spot I'm really happy with, knowing I couldn've done so much better. But it happens. You can't win them all, and I guess I just couldn't win this game. It's ok , I'll hop off the feels wagon, and roll onto my next adventure... except, this one is different. Being a loser here feels... wrong somehow? I mean, it feels like like any loser scenario should. but I guess I need to clarify a few things.
I've been a loser before, and I've also been a finalist before. Hell, I've even been a host, so I know how these things all go down. Whenever I've been in a loser spot, I kind of just lurk the rest of the game, and maybe give opinions once in a while. It's kind of like being demoted to being a lurker. Of course, when the merge comes along I like reading what the actual lurkers thought of me, and then get upset knowing that I was fucked from the beginning. either way, it's a strange out of body experience that I still have trouble adjusting to. Of course, I've grown numb to it, so I guess just a feeling that everyone feels from time to time.
But, this time, its different. I told myself I wouldn't be forgotten in this game, I think I may have done well enough to at least be somewhat memorable? I really don't know honestly, I'm more or less waiting for the whole game to be over so I can maybe read confessionals and stuff. Of course, I'm going off on tangents. Since my elimination, it's been... different. I feel like I was never even on this season, and that I pretty much lurked it all. It's a little strange knowing that I wasn't really a big part in the whole season, and my elimination on Kirati really just hasn't had any impact on the season, or at least that how I feel. If anything, I already feel like an alumni, and someone who really has just been in Stranded since like, Venezuela, or something. It's just.. hard to explain... I guess I just feel like I was never on this season. It's not that I don't want to admit that I wasn't on this season, but rather, sicne I was gone so early, it's almost like I was just not even on this season. It's hard to describe, but I'm sure someone can understand?
Either way, I have to say that I've had the most fun being a loser in this game than I have since I've started playing, and I actually have incentive to stick around and continue posting and be active? it's weird, but I feel like I'm already part of the Stranded family. I know that I'll still say that this was one of my more favorite adventures. I can also say that without a doubt that this game was probably one of the most refreshing games I've had in a VERY long time. Props to all the hosts for figuring this game out.
Anyways, I hope I've been a fun presence here. I really don't like it when my actions are in vain, so hopefully I contributed to SOMETHING?
Lisa out. See you all on the flip side Sunday night.