Stranded in Nepal

Congratulations, you've made it to the Final 12, and the merge!

Tell me how you're feeling about making it this far, and what your plan is now that all of you are in one big tribe. How are you going to survive this next vote? How are you going to win the game? :)

UGH. UGH UGH UGH UGH. STACEY IS GOING TO KILL MY ASS.

We all thought the tiebreaker rule was that the person with immunity on OUR tribe would break it, not Hayden! I mean Hayden is chill but with Chris the plan could've worked out perfectly. Whatever. I'm glad Artis is gone since he was gunning for me. (Artis if you see this... I just wanna know why D:)

So the intent was to tie the vote to...... Scare Artis?

Nah. We were going to split the votes 3-2 originally, but then Stacey decided to vote with us, so it was 3-3. The split was because Stacey was telling everyone she had ~assets~ and we didn't want to take a chance that if she had an idol, one of us could go.

I mean, I was fine with either of them, but honestly, what the fuck do I tell Stacey?

I feel like our chances going into the merge aren't that great as an alliance. I don't know -- I mean, I really don't know much about the other tribe's dynamics, but I'm a bit wary about going right up to someone and being like "so, you want to join our alliance?" because obviously, they're going to think they'll be on the bottom of ours. And in a way, they may be right. My ideal F3 would be me, Carter, and Kimmi, because they're the people I'm closest to here. But, I mean, I'm not that picky. I want that album. But at the same time, we absolutely need someone who was on nuKurati to flip. I think Denise is our best bet since we already know her, but we need more than just her. It's the problem of trying to see it from their point of view... to them, who's the better option? Who has a better chance of getting them to the end? I want to make our alliance the better prospect but I didn't major in marketing!

Okay so what is your ideal plan for this upcoming vote? You are immune - congrats! - but so are Debb and Denise. Who would you like to see leave at this stage?

I could say I want Stacey to go... She hasn't PM'd anyone even after our ~brilliant plan~ to get her out failed, and that's kind of scary. I thought she would be going around telling everyone how awful we (me, Carter, Chris, Kimmi, Tina) were. But apparently she hasn't talked to anyone.

But I doubt Stacey is going to be able to do much damage in the long run. I want to see someone from the opposing Rai alliance gone.

So, have you considered your own personal position in the game instead of sticking iwth one particular alliance or tribe?

lel if only i knew jeff bruh

Seriously though, our own alliance doesn't seem to know who we're voting tonight, let alone who the other alliance is voting, let alone who's really even in our alliance. I think part of it is attributed to the fact I wasn't here this weekend, and I tend to talk a lot. I was the one who brought Kimmi into our alliance, and I think I could've brought the others in for this vote more easily, but I wasn't here. I'm hoping that the others have built up enough trust with them that at the very least some of them will vote with us or they'll be throwaways and allow us to get someone off the other alliance.

But, I see basically no opportunities for myself in the other tribe. Stacey knows that I was involved in voting out Artis, and I just won a challenge so maybe they'll think I'm some kind of threat. Which, in my opinion, I'm not lol, but I won't disagree or agree with anyone who says that. I'd be on the bottom no matter what unless I had an idol, which I don't. So, right now, I think sticking with my current alliance is the only way I can get forward in the game. And if someone from our alliance flips... well, I don't want to think about that, since I'd probably get fucked hard in the ass. I can't see a way to bounce back from that without an idol or strong ties with the other alliance.

If Stacey ends up staying tonight, what does that mean for you and your alliance?

Well, it'll suck, since it'll be the second time we've tried to get her out and failed. But more than that, I'd be concerned because it meant that someone from our alliance got voted off and not them, so obviously we're down a number which is huge when the alliances are so divided. We may still have hope in people from the other alliance flipping, but that kind of future is so uncertain, I dunno, Jeff! You sure know how to make a girl feel pressured.