[Thanks Jeffy :( btw can I still update my confessional from that round? I'd like to have the dirt there for posterity lol]
Man, and I thought the
Lisa blindside sucked! But I was starting to get bad vibes again, should've known better
I just wanna know who flipped, that's all ugh
ANYWAY *poker face* I learned that relationships really
are everything, but you have to have the eye of a goddamn hawk/a spidey sense to decipher when things are shifting without you. (Idc what anyone says, I
would be better at this aspect IRL. Text is hard!!) I missed that boat with the Lisa vote, but I think I gained a little ground with the Stacey and Hayden votes. Obviously, despite trying to be on my toes every second, I must've let things slip out of my grasp, and that's how I went home.
I also learned that counting is harder than you think, immunity idols are goddamn hard to find, and Nepali words are confusing as hell.
Hmm regrets? Playing with my heart too much instead of my head. I knew going in I'd have trouble with that, but not THAT much trouble, jesus. So I'd like to say that I would change that, but I think it's just too damn ingrained in me and I'd fall victim to the same trap.
And at least in the short term, maybe I should've flipped with Jeff and them last night to do Angie--but I really still don't think that would've worked out well for me. Once I know who flipped tonight, I'll have better hindsight
And I should've immediately tried looking for that idol Angie just got the clue to. Not that it would've done me much good I guess?? Oh and I would never let my contact with people drop out like it did with Ramona and Hayden and whoever else. Gotta keep that shit on lock!
Idk, it's hard to properly compose my thoughts rn; too much shit going on up there!
Oh, irrelevant, but I would reeeally like to believe that some people's mean votes for me in the poll were simply because I was going home. Just trying to protect my ego here
Right now, I'd have to say I wouldn't play again. The wounds are fresh, it's
so hard to read people--and I laud myself for that irl, so it's rough for it to get crushed here--plus it takes up SO much time and mental energy. I literally woke up like 3 different times by bad dreams about this damned game
. At this point, with *world travel* and grad school and shit coming up, there's no way I could handle that. But these are also just convenient excuses for "my ego is hella bruised like ow."
BUT it was also REALLY fun and crazy and gets you thinking for hours, and best of all, I got to know some
amazing people that I'd love to be friends with irl. All in all, a great experience that I can't handle again
Posted: Wed Dec 10, 2014 9:50:39 pm