Marissa Peterson wrote:
Last Night you were an absolute MESS in your confessional. Feeling any better tonight Jeffy.Babe?
Ummm. Jeffy? But yes, I am feeling better, kind of. Honestly, I assumed I was going last night so I was just doing all I could to ensure it didn't happen. Jeff was told that I was throwing him under the bus, and asked me and Tina about it and of course I denied it, and he voted with me still so I think that he bought it. Who knows, though. I fully expect to be voted out tonight if I lose immunity anyway. I'm not stupid, there's no way they go with me if Carter's not an option to vote.
Also it has come to my attention that Jeff and possibly Tina see me as a goat. Their goat, specifically. I think it's funny that they think, considering everything I've done they have also done, with a handful of exceptions on both sides. Almost all our moves were together, and for some reason that makes me the tagalong and them the masterminds. Ok, however you guys want to see things. I never claimed to be a mastermind. I knew what I wanted and I went for it. I also worked my ass off to get people to like me so I could utilize my relationships with them to move forward. That was my plan at the start and that was what I did. And that is what I'll tell the jury if I get to the finals. That and a few other things. I think my best strategy, since it's apparent that Jeff and Tina's play is to make me look like their follower who didn't really do anything, is to just sink the whole ship. If I can't get any credit for our moves as a group, then neither can they. I think I can effectively do that by stating that it was a group effort and no masterminding was involved. The past several boots needed no orchestrating, only people to go along with it. No one needed convincing that Chris and Angie were threats. So no one should really get credit for their boots. Well...I started the attack on Angie, so I might claim that one as my own, but the rest were group votes. Most of the votes in this have been group votes, so I don't think there's a lot to cling to here.
I know I've got at least a couple supporters in the jury. Angie agreed with Carter (or was it Chris) when he posted his "threat" list at tribal and I was at the top. So that's a good sign that the jury hasn't turned her against me, which means I might be supported by the jury for the most part. I know Carter is more supported though. So he's definitely undesirable no. 1. Tina and Jeff are toss ups. I'm not excited about maybe facing off against Jeff in the finals, but it might have to happen. If he goes to the jury he could easily poison them against me. If we're in the finals it's his word against mine. He has reason to lie in the finals, he doesn't in the jury.
Obviously the best way to get to the end and win this is to vote out Carter. I think I could hold my own against Jeff and Tina. I'd just have to break their arguments quickly. As far as actually getting there, my best bet is to win immunity. Carter has brought up an interesting idea, which I really don't understand, frankly. He offered to vote with me if he wins immunity, if I told him what has been going on with our alliance the past couple rounds. Which, honestly, at this point I had no choice but to go along with. I didn't tell him anything particularly incriminating. He told me that Jeff told him that basically I'm a goat and not the "mastermind" Carter thought I was. Honestly, I didn't even know I was thought of as a mastermind. I assumed I was targeted for my social game. That's even what I was told not too long ago, so I didn't have reason to think anything different. So I gave Carter the gist of my hopefully FTC speech that there was no mastermind and it was a group effort, thereby neutering Jeff's claims that he was a mastermind. I hope. It could really hurt me if Carter doesn't believe me.
At this point, I"m used to the votes, so I don't even care. Until I get voted out, it's just more ammo for me to use at FTC. And really I think I've been able to survive this long primarily because of the dumb moves of my allies, quite frankly. If I were in their shoes I would have turned on me rounds ago. Like, as soon as I started getting labeled a threat to win. There was no real reason not to. And they would have made a name for themselves. I'm going to have to figure out a way to spin that to the jury that makes me look like I did something though. But knocking their games isn't the worst way to go, I suppose.
Posted: Wed Dec 17, 2014 9:26:01 am
