by Kimmi » Wed Dec 10, 2014 2:59:48 pm
I don't think I can blame anyone but myself. I was too hasty to assemble people to pull it off and some were uneasy about it (Tina) and some were probably too non-responsive about it to be trusted (Rich), but I went along with it anyway and it predictably blew up in my face. I think it was worth the try though. If it had worked it would have been a great way to show I'm playing my own game and not just blindly following the easy votes. But I think I let that idea blind me a bit from thinking rationally. I'm kind of glad it happened, in a way. It shattered the whole "honeymoon phase" of the alliance we had going on and now I think some more options will open up. Chris has already told us he wants to flip to take out Angie or Denise. I don't know if I can trust him, but my options are kind of limited at the moment. I still have my idol, so that's a plus. And they don't know I have it, so also an advantage. Now that I've shown I'm not solidly with them I think they'll feel less betrayed if/when I play it.
My thoughts on my tribemates...
Jeff is feeling defeated, which doesn't bode well for us, but it also gives me a chance to step up more and be more leadery.
Tina gives me mixed feelings. I'm irritated that she flipped last minute again but I think I'm more irritated with myself for not thinking this whole thing through very well. She had good intentions and we're not in a completely horrible position now so it might be ok. Plus, she's supposedly still in good with the Kirati so I might be able to get a heads up if votes are heading my way and play my idol.
Rich, I'm not sure what to think. Should I be mad at him for not voting with us in what I think/thought was a good move? Do I have a right to be mad when he was just doing what he could to stay alive, despite it going against my plan? I don't think I do, so I don't think I can be. He did vote out the one person left in the game that was his only real ally, and now according to Chris he's tucked neatly in to the Kirati's collective asshole so unless he does something else other than just survive I think he's going to secure himself a goat position, which I'm ok with. I think he might be the only goat in this game.
Debb really impressed me the whole last round. She proved herself more capable than I thought in setting things up with people, and I think she's a real UTR threat. So UTR that I didn't even realize it until now.
Everyone else, no real change in sentiments. I still like and respect all the Kirati, but my desire to try to vote some of them out remains. All I can do is dust myself off again and try to power through.
