by Carter » Mon Dec 15, 2014 7:08:28 pm
Yeah, yeah, yeah, I heard her loud and clear...
I figured as much, but I thought there was a sliver of a chance that it would be me, granted it was nothing more than a .000001% chance. I asked her if she wanted me to play it for her, and she vehemently said no. I keep telling myself that it's because she didn't want me too, and that if the roles were reversed, she would've done the same thing, but let's be real, that isn't the whole story...
It's an individual game at this point. Pairs are targets, and with Angie and I still around, there's no chance that Chris or Tina vote with us, and we still go out at 6 and 5, due to a split vote and then a unanimous vote barring an immunity win. I feel horrible about saying this, but I had to start thinking about myself. I've been relying on others for so long, whether it was for moral support or to keep me calm and intact or to organize and/or carry out a vote, that I had to ween myself off of that dependence. It was time to start playing on my own, and it hurt like hell to make the decision. But at the end of the day, I did what I had to do to give myself the best chance I could to win, even though it meant losing the one true friend that I had here. I still hate myself for the decision, but it was the only one I had to make...